"I feel like a bit of a disappointment to all of you and I feel like a failure."
Bethenny Frankel couldn't hold back her tears as she said those words in her first interview since filing for divorce, opening up about her split from husband of two years Jason Hoppy.
"I wanted the fairytale. I thought I had it," the former "Real Housewives of New York" star tells Ellen DeGeneres in an interview airing today.
With a tissue in hand, she went on to say "I don’t know how people go through this because this is excruciating."
"I can't just only be on reality TV and show everything when it's fairy princess, fairytale and then not take my hits when I have to," Frankel says, explaining why she's being open about the split when the wounds are still so fresh.
Despite her heartbreak, Frankel says she's still optimistic for the future.
"I get letters from people saying now I don't believe in love and that's just not true, love is everywhere," she says.
See what else she says about the divorce and her next move in the video above.
The full interview airs today on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."
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